Zach was the most chatty baby I have ever met and has continued to be the chattiest person in my life. He is exhausting, sucking all the energy out of me at times! He is an extrovert. Lucas had the worst acid reflux as an infant! It was awful. I would nurse him and within 5 minutes he would throw it all back up again. It got really depressing when all I was doing for the first few weeks was nursing him day and night. This was a huge reason I stopped breastfeeding him.
Well Zach is 5 and Luke is about 17 months and they are both as crazy as ever. Sometimes I am not really sure how I have made it through a particularly crazy day. I have been doing a lot of praying lately. I stop in any given moment and either to myself or often times out loud I ask God for help to cope with the craziness. And I am pretty sure that at this stage in the game I have also become part of the crazies, which for a while have tried to hide. But honestly I think it's better to be open and honest about these kinds of things. So yes I am part of this crazy bunch!!! I may not be crazy to some of you that know me but my brain explodes with craziness as I lay in bed at night. It used to be so easy to fall asleep at night when I was working outside of the home. My body would be so exhausted from working with other people's children all day (I worked at a daycare) that it was all I could do to stay awake long enough to get the boys fed and into bed.
It's been almost a year of staying at home with my boys and Chloe (little girl I watch during the week) that I think the craziness of it all just seems normal to me. I know nothing else! And further more if I didn't have this craziness that I am so used to I wouldn't know what to do with myself. This crazy business involves every aspect of my life~my boys, my husband (though that is less than most of the others), my home, my relationships, my friendships...
The craziness is just CRAZY!!! My day is filled with cleaning up messes from one end of the house to the other. When I think it's done I have to start all over again! The laundry (which I hate!) is always this huge pile that never seems to get any smaller and just like the cleaning up just when I think it's complete it really isn't! The temper tantrums of Sir Duke these days have just got me wanting to cry and scream myself! YIKES! Oh and the fact that this kid just can't seem to keep his body out of things it doesn't belong in! He always seems to find another object to put his cute little self into :)
Zach lately thinks he is the best thing since sliced bread!!! Pretty sure he is smarter than me and will continue to be smarter than me until the day I die! It's great another thing I get to look forward to :) And the never ending loudness and screaming at our house. Right now as I am writing Zach is at school and both Chloe and Luke are sleeping. The house is very quiet which is totally weird for me since usually we have to have the TV volume up to
#21 to hear anything that is going on and even than we strain.
Ok so don't get me wrong I love my boys and the fact that I get to stay home with them. And I also know that at least at this moment this is how things are supposed to be. God never gives you more than you can handle, right?? God must really think I can handle a lot cuz my plate is overflowing :-) and to be honest I wouldn't want it anyother way.
*Thank you God for all the wonderful blessings you have given me. It makes me awestruck to think of all you have chosen for me to deal with and the fact that you must trust me so very much to give me so much! In Your holy name. AMEN!!*
